I'm just starting to realize how much I really miss church. I grew up going to church every week with my family, and loved it. Sure, I became a teenager and decided I wasn't going to be forced to do anything, but everyone does that. Then after having Sophie, it has become a war just trying to get both her and Denny ready to go. After months of it, I gave up. I want Sophie to grow up in the church, I want her to go to Primary and learn all the silly songs, I want to go make friends there... but I just feel kind of stupid going now.
I know people talk, and my family isn't really "picture perfect." Denny is supportive, and tells me that he has no problem with me going, I can even drag him along every now and again. I just hate going by myself. Then on top of sitting by myself, I have a very active little girl, who REFUSES to sit still more than 5 minutes.
All in all, I'm going to try. After all, I am the mommy, and its my job to make sure we all get to Heaven in one piece. :)
1 comment:
I totally understand how you feel! Even though Jared goes I feel like I have to get 3 kids to get ready instead of two! Don't give up, it's tough now, but eventually you'll see the fruits of your labors. And don't worry about what other people say, you started you married life a little different than they did, it doesn't make you less of a mom! Hold your head up and do the best you can! That's all that really matters anyway, doing the best you can.
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