Tuesday, March 25, 2014

My Garden

Sophie has always had the sweetest personality.
She is always thinking of others.
She shares everything.
She gives without thought.
She is an amazing person.

After I had Mya, I struggled with postpartum depression.
Sophie would hug me and remind me to take my pill, so that I could be happy.
She was 3.

When Finn was born, it was even worse.
I remember one time I was laying face down on my bed.
Overwhelmed by the world, I silently begged for the ground to open and swallow me up.
My face was wet with tears.
My body was completely exhausted.
The idea of surviving another day was almost too much to stomach.

Sophie came quietly into the room, and stood there for a moment. 
When I didn't respond, she moved closer.
Covering me with the quilt, she leaned down and kissed my head.
I wanted desperately to find the will to tell her that I was ok, but I couldn't.
I just laid there.
Lifeless.
She whispered in my ear, "It's ok, Mom. I know it is hard for you sometimes."
After stroking my hair a few times, she left the room.

Her compassion is endless.
I am over the moon that I get to raise a girl with such a beautiful soul.
She will be even more incredible when she is grown.


A few weeks ago, Sophie drew this picture for me.
Her face beamed when she proudly handed it to me.
"This is for you, because I know you miss our garden."

I do.
I so desperately miss my house, my yard, my giant windows, but most of all...
my garden.
Now, thanks to Sophie, I have a beautiful garden to look at every day.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Zoloft

I like to think of myself as a strong person.
I can accomplish many things with determination and time.
 Many, but not all.

Once the idea of hurling myself off an overpass stared to look like an appealing option, I had to reevaluate.
Choosing the lesser of two evils, I've started Zoloft again.

Why is this any of your business?
It really isn't.

BUT
I believe that mental health is something that needs more attention in our society.
While not everyone is blessed (sarcasm) with a lifelong condition like my bipolar disorder, everyone struggles now and again.
Happy people can get depressed.
Such is life.

SO
I'm bipolar.
And I'm cool with that.

I'm still a fantastic mother.
I'm still a bangin' hot wife.
I'm still a crafty overachiever.

Let's be honest, crazy people are always more fun anyway.


Now enjoy some pictures of my beautiful children!

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Thursday, January 2, 2014

Sophie is 6!

Holy cow do I feel old.
My little girl is 6!

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We no longer live in the snow-covered state, so we got to celebrate outside!
It was awesome.


We did treats and gifts at the park.
For her treat, Sophie picked oatmeal raisin cookies.
Yummmmmm.


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We got her a bow and arrow set.

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And a dart gun.

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A little nightlight bug thing, and some silly string.

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I didn't get oodles of pictures because my plans were ruined by my lack of directional awareness.
We quickly did gifts then shot off to the movies.
Sophie wanted to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2.


She has since been shooting everyone with her gifts.
I was woken up with an arrow to the face this morning.

Worth it.

Mya is 3!

At some point this year, my toddler grew into a full blown child.
I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that.

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We celebrated Mya's 3rd birthday at CiCis.

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Her favorite babysitters came.

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And her favorite cousins.

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Everyone enjoyed pizza.

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We sang to the birthday girl.

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Yummy chocolate cupcakes!

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PRESENTS!

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A very happy birthday indeed.

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Christmas 2013

First off...

THANK YOU!

We have such amazing family.
We didn't really have a Christmas fund this year, and planned to get maybe 2 things for each kid.
That still counts are Christmas, so we didn't feel the need to go asking around for any help.

It came anyways.
You guys are great, we love you.



On to pictures!

Sophie asked for 2 things this year.
A telescope, and boots.
My kid effing loves science.

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Mya will settle for pretty much anything princess related.

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And, well...Finn just shoves everything in his mouth right now.



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We had a lot of fun, and hope you did too.